But I’m doing it anyway, because you never know who it might help
Lovely, how are you and your Little One this week? I feel like I’ve said this a million times, but this week has been so incredibly intense and so many mums (and Little Ones) have been struggling…so if things have felt tough this week, you’re not on your own!
Energetically this week, there has been a lot going on…on top of a full moon lunar eclipse (which was intense enough!) there were also 6 planets in retrograde (which is where they appear to be going backwards, and can bring up A LOT of stuff for us to process). Although this can feel really hard, it’s actually a good thing, as it give you the opportunity to heal and release what you’re holding onto…all the stuff that isn’t doing you any good, and is stopping you from truly connecting to your Little One.
I had one of those weeks last week…
It started off with some irritability, feelings of overwhelm and the need to be alone (which of course, both of my children zone in on and don’t want to leave my side).
Then so many emotions began to come up, I didn’t know what to do with myself…I wanted to talk but didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to be on my own, but didn’t feel like very good company. I was snappy with the children, then feeling guilty straight afterwards.
I tried meditating but my mind wouldn’t switch off
I tried journaling but the words just wouldn’t come
I was tired but couldn’t switch off, so was going to bed late and waking up late
I wanted to go out and get drunk, forget about everything and block out the emotions
This wasn’t me now, this was the old me!
I was holding too much and I wasn’t creating enough of a release…it was making me want to run away
So I stepped away from social media
I took a break from working
I listened to my body…and I listened to my heart
Familiar stories were rising up…not feeling good enough, not feeling heard, feeling sorry for myself, feeling lonely
I used EFT to start unblocking, and I had my healer come over to my house to work on clearing what was stuck around us
I allowed myself to feel whatever was coming up, I acknowledged it, I was grateful for it and I consciously released it
I argued with my ex…releasing all of the resentment I was holding towards him, with force
Yesterday, instead of working when the children were with Daddy, I meditated, journaled, did a tapping session and then journaled again…the tears started to come
Then last night, at the end of “How to Train Your Dragon ~ The Hidden World”, I started crying…and I didn’t stop until I went to sleep
I was grieving…
Grieving for the marriage that hadn’t worked out
Grieving for the family unit that had fallen apart
Grieving for the man I started going out with, who I felt changed towards me as soon as I became a Mum
I know that our relationship was not meant to be…and I know that I will be with someone else who is right for me
I know that we learned the lessons we needed to, we created our beautiful children and we will move forward in a different way
But I still had all of the human feelings, and I hadn’t allowed myself to really feel them, heal them and release them
And whilst I was holding on to all of it, I couldn’t have a decent relationship with him because it was easier to be angry
It also meant that I couldn’t give my children exactly what they needed (even though I was non stop, doing everything I could for them) because I was blocked
I know that whatever I go through, there is the potential for me to learn from the experience to help someone else…which is why it’s important that I share
Whatever you have been through, it is so important to heal and release…birth trauma, struggles with conception, family break ups, abuse, bullying, loss…it’s all stored and can all be triggered (and when you least expect it)
As a Mum it’s your responsibility to clear the way, the unload your heavy heart and let go of what’s stopping you from being who you came here to be…I took that responsibility on, will you?
You don’t have to do it alone
If you experienced a traumatic or difficult pregnancy or birth, I have a FREE group where I will be sharing FREE workshops over the summer, to help both you and your Little One
If, like me, you’ve come through your most difficult times (apart from when 6 planets are in retrograde and there’s a full moon lunar eclipse!!) and now you know it’s your time to help others come through the same transformation, then there’s something really special that I’d like to share with you…you can find out more below, about how I’m helping mums in business use their own experiences to help others (of course in a slightly different way!)
Just a note to say, that if you are struggling and there’s nothing here that is speaking to you, do please get in touch…I’m here to help you
Love Jennie 💕